bye bye!

this blog is not who i am i’m colorful and lively and always smiling and i try to make myself something i’m not. i’m happy and it’s in my nature to radiate happiness, like, take naruto and replace his ninja goals and abilities with my goal, to be a biochemist and a writer and add brown hair and brown eyes and you have me, a person that’s just… me, it’s me. and this blog makes me something i’m… not.

i’m not a demiboy, i’m not val, i’m simona and i’m… a cis girl? i was .. lying to myself the whole time because i felt like i needed to do that. i guess i felt like there’s an escape in being a boy, in being a man, and there IS an escape but i’ve never been one to run. it wasn’t dysphoria i was feeling but… internalized misogyny? because i felt that being like i am, being a girl, a woman was “just not me” when infact, i just didn’t WANT to be a woman because being a man is easier.
but setting all these layers aside i’m just a girl. and she / her is what suits me best…

and i’m a bisexual and oh, i’m not aroflux, i’m only demiromantic, probably.

i’ve… found myself, and that’s why i’m leaving this blog. i’m still a kid, after all. i need to live.

i LIVE
and to know that i could have Not lived is a scary thought but i LIVE

liiiifeeee is amaaaziiing

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I love you, but I’m mad at you is one of the most freeing, important things you can say in a stable relationship. Does that make sense? To know that you have the ability and the right to be mad at someone and know that it doesn’t mean things are over, that it doesn’t mean things are irreparable. That it just means I’m mad, but God, I love you. I love you. Now leave me alone.
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Eat better. Run more. Squat more. Sleep earlier. Wake up earlier. Make a good breakfast. Drink water. Eat fruits. Read books. Adventure. Talk less. Listen more. Feel deeper. Love better. Open your eyes. Experience life. Be happy.
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