this blog is not who i am i’m colorful and lively and always smiling and i try to make myself something i’m not. i’m happy and it’s in my nature to radiate happiness, like, take naruto and replace his ninja goals and abilities with my goal, to be a biochemist and a writer and add brown hair and brown eyes and you have me, a person that’s just… me, it’s me. and this blog makes me something i’m… not.
i’m not a demiboy, i’m not val, i’m simona and i’m… a cis girl? i was .. lying to myself the whole time because i felt like i needed to do that. i guess i felt like there’s an escape in being a boy, in being a man, and there IS an escape but i’ve never been one to run. it wasn’t dysphoria i was feeling but… internalized misogyny? because i felt that being like i am, being a girl, a woman was “just not me” when infact, i just didn’t WANT to be a woman because being a man is easier.
but setting all these layers aside i’m just a girl. and she / her is what suits me best…
and i’m a bisexual and oh, i’m not aroflux, i’m only demiromantic, probably.
i’ve… found myself, and that’s why i’m leaving this blog. i’m still a kid, after all. i need to live.